What I fear most

What do I fear the most? hm... toad, gecko, cockroach, drowning, world war 3, being sick. That is what I can think of at the moment. Anyways. At the moment, I fear toad the most. I think. Those monstrous creatures sit down in front of my front door and do not even move. They are the reason why I do not going outside my house at night or just going out. They block my pathway. Once, I just came back home from Street Market and literally I was stuck outside my house for twenty minutes. There was this huge toad chilling out in front of my door. I despise them and fear them. I am scared that if I tried to move them or shoo them away, they will attack me somehow. They are covered with the gooey, disgusting, sticky stuff that makes them toad. I fear amphibians in general. My phobia of the toads started when I was in third grade. I came out to wear my shoes which were outside. Then I could feel this lumpy wet thing that was inside the shoe. Then when I pulled out my foot, the toad was peeping out. I cannot describe how scared I was. I have no idea why they even exist on this earth. This is one of my top 100 questions that I will ask God. They are big. green. dark green. yucky. slimy. everywhere. I do not care when I see toads slammed on the road. roadkill. I cannot careless for them. But does not mean I am heartless.
Also their friends, gecko, creeps me out as well. Geckos...oh... they are the reasons why I do not living in a tropical island. I was grateful living in New Zealand. Because geckos did not exist everywhere. I am scared that they will attack me somehow like one did when I was in second grade. I was nonchalantly sitting in the front sit while my mum was driving. But we had our window open. Then a truck passed by that a gecko flew in somehow and attacked me. literally. They are everywhere. seriously. they have this round marble eyes that stare into my soul. Like it is going to eat me someday. I get scared when they are in my room or in my shower. They are scary creatures. My school's mascot is gecko. Why?? Out of all the other pretty beautiful animals... Why geckos? We could have been...um... starfish at least... I think that is better than a gecko. I especially fear the geckos that are really transparent. It it really disgusting. I can literally see their internal organs. yuck. yuck. yuck. My sister hates them and fears them. But she catches them in a can and kinda torture them. Even though I hate geckos...I would not kill it. I just want it to be out of my site!! They really truly scares me. They are the monsters that I have to fight in order to go to my house or leave the house. I am scared that the geckos will fall on me. I can not even imagine. 
I HATE CLOWNS. I FEAR ITIt is like a devil on earth. It is the devil. I hate it. It creeps me out.